Allright!
I'd say it's right about time for some updates! I haven't really yearned for doing some blogging in ages, but today it just... felt right.

Current status:
HAPPY ♥

Current occupation:
-travelling student and the happy fiancé of the worlds best man.

I have spent the last month or so doing a lot of flying. I find this so fantastic, because less than a year ago, ten wild horses and a lot of energy had to be spent for me to even consider to use the plane to get anywhere. No, I was under the belief that the means of travel was in land and sea vehicles, even if it took me more than 24 hours to reach my destination. I considered it a better way to spend my sanity and energy, than to sit locked in a tin can for 2-3 hours. Ridiculous, I know. And I also knew this before, too, but unable to do something with it.

Sunset from the air.

However, now I have done something with it. I have during the last 9 months flown to Budapest, Trondheim (twice), London, Stockholm (also twice, and there is a third time coming up too) and even Östersund. And most of these flights were done alone even. I am so proud of myself that they can see my pride all the way to Trondheim, people take sunbaths in my sunshine in London, that's how proud I am. Mortal sin they say, pride is, good thing I am not one to believe in the bible.

How did I do this? With the help of Nina Rope, a Finnish hypnotherapist and former Finnair pilot. I'm not going to explicate at length here about how we managed to put me into the flying tin can without any fear, because it is both a rather personal experience, and I believe it to be a very individual course of events - no hypnosis is ever routine or the same from person to person (and it also varies how and where the problem in question has manifested, and even what the problem is).

We had complete clear sky on my last return,
all the beautiful cities below were like precious
stones - I only wish I'd brought a real camera.

Point is, I am free now, and I have a bright future ahead of me, together with my future husband. I can finally go to the places I have only dared dream about, and I have a long list of places that was locked off from me before. The experience has made me a very positive and happy person, and I know a hell of a lot more about myself now, than before.

Most important of all, I could meet my (then)5 weeks old nephew within the same weekend that I had a mandatory gathering at my university in Stockholm. There is no chains to control the choice of profession, I can now study what ever it is that I want to become when I grow up!

If you think this post has quite the undertone of "loco, born again christian/evangelist/druid/hippie", but so be it. I am a happy person, and I am just so damned lucky to have found this way without the help of some religious security blanket.

Some snapshots from recent travels:

A crisp winter morning in Östersund, perfect to clear the head
before holding a presentation for 40 strangers.

Mittuniversitetet, campus Östersund

From campus Östersund, formerly the military stables.

The view from a lecture hall

The escape pod at Karolinska Instituten.
(it just had to be said hihi)

And what awaits me when returning home to Finland? These little goodies! Thank you honey!

I'll never run out of mana again.

Eve and me were playing around with the big nanodots. They are so addictive! They are the most fantastical toy for all ages